Saturday, December 31, 2011

Review : Shiseido Maquillage Crystalizing Lip Compact #34

I’d done writing this review since loooong ago but I just posted it on my blog…..NOW. I apologize for my laziness, yeah, I wish I can ride it off soon! *pray aloud*
I got this lipstick from my auntie. My grandma brought auntie and her sister this cute compact lipstick from HK. Since she’s not interested in makeup especially in lipstick, she gave this to me. Oh, and I was like “WOW!” to receive it. Love love love how it looks! You’ll soon, know why.


Two-colored mirror. One is pink. You can see your reflection in it. Really cute! The other is blurred mirror, which is a little bit pale-pink colored, with a little bit blue undertone. See no reflection there.

Saturday, December 24, 2011

Two Things I HAVE TO Live Without

It’s been a while since my last post, rite? I’ve been longing for years to start blogging! Have made another page that I dedicate for my makeup stuffs and reviews. Finally! You will envy me, darling, you will. *evil laugh*
Nope, I was just kidding, (which is not funny at ALL.) Okay, back to blog about my personal life. You can check on the rest of this makeup topic by clicking on this blue-underlined-word. And to continue what I’ve started, here’s me telling you guys about how’s life been treating me these few weeks.
Exams are all done. Gotta join the remedial test for TWO subjects I hate the most :


Well, these guys had never treated me well since the year 10 of my school life began. They just suck—no, it was not the teacher! It is absolutely the lesson itself. I don’t understand a single thing about trigonometry, or about scarcity and elasticity of an economical curve! Who cares, eh? I don’t wanna be a mathematic expert nor an accounting! One of those numbers I wrote on my forever-hate-list is that my country, Indonesia, is kinda like……forcing all the kids here to learn on stuffs they’re really not into. Say, like me, that I’m not about to be an accounting or an artist, but I really have to learn art and economy theories also it appliques. The same thing also happens on every kid in this country. We’re…..forced to learn on every subjects, no matter we like them or not, no matter we’re into it or not! Well, isn’t it useless? So many times I’ve been day-dreaming to live in America or Singapore, which is nearer. They really focus on the children’s talents and their interests. Never force on any single person. Isn’t that what we need, my fellas from all over this country? Sure that we will be a better generation that we’re focusing on our own specialty. Don’t you agree? *big smile*

*clear throat* ehm. statement above is trueeeee.

No doubt that I’m a pure sanguine, dolls. See? I easily got upset about stuffs that happened around. So sorry for being my heart-to-heart talking partner, but I really do appreciate if you keep on reading to this part. Come, gonna give you a warm hug! *hug*

And that’s how life has been treating me these days. How about yours? You can post a comment about your day, or just to complain about something that really bothers your mind. I’ll be a good listener, so trust me :D 


Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Spoken Mind?

“No. Not this time.” Decode—Paramore.


A broken heart will be healed as time goes by.
There’s nothing such a true love if time runs still. Time heals broken heart.

Girls, do you really believe in those statements above? Or to be more proper, I call them ‘quotes’. Do you really believe in those motivating words? You may do, but I totally DO NOT.
What can save you from a broken heart if you’re brought down by something you even don’t know? You blame yourself for causing this relationship ends. But, did you? You blame him for causing but DID he?
Some say that breaking up is just common. Pathetically some say it’s a must.
‘It’s life, some just go away to give place to the newcomers.’
For God sake, I don’t want a new him. I don’t want him to be replaced. The moment we had together was just too perfect to be had. Cliché, eh? But you know what I’m saying is true. You used to have the best, your best, God’s best for you, but you—or according to my case, it’s me—threw him up that easy?
You said he didn’t deserve you without looking at selves. You said he was so selfish for hanging out with his friends, and when it came to be boy friends, you shouted him a gay, and if they weren’t boys instead of girls, you called him a player. Gave all the shopping bags to him to be carried, so he’d look like a real gentleman treating a girl like his Lady, and spent all day in saloon or spa with him waiting by your side. Even a single step out of the saloon, you seriously wanted to break him up for being not understanding nor caring. He once forgot to text you a goodnight text because his day was tiring and the next morning he got a thousand miscalls and swear words inside his phone inbox. But when it was you, disappeared for a day without any texts and informations—the valid one—for him, you got mad as soon as you found your phone was full of his texts. You expected him to reply your text while he was on his way home, driving his car alone. Do you really want this house believes that you want him to die as soon as possible in a car crash for texting while driving? And not to understand the situation, you thought he was cheating behind you and as he got home, you shouted at his almost-crying-face.

Die, we all die. We adored ourselves too much that it could kill the happiest man alive. They gave all we want, all we ever asked, all we’d been longing for years. A flawless love, a perfect  kiss, a warm hug. Aren’t those what you were telling all your childhood friends to be had in your happy future? You told them all you don’t need money but love. You didn’t need a cute face, well-built body, but a pure heart that is intended to love a girl to the rest of his life. Confession is easy to be denied, but heart can never stop speaking the truth for, of a lost soul like us. You knew you want him. You knew you want him to be treated well as your man. Can you, actually? Do exactly the same according to your dreams, to the plans you were telling people you wanna do?

I doubt you can. I doubt I can. But at least we’re not giving up instead of trying to be better and better after every problems we’re in, right? In my case, time flies away but I stand still in the memory about him. Can’t even take a step forward or backward. I’ve been stuck here for more than a year, and day by day it’s getting hard to move on from where I am now. Checking on my phone is still the first thing I’m doing as I got up. Wish if there’s any texts from you; if it was from last night or it was just sent right away from your silver-used-to-be-cellphone. And surprisingly, I am no more surprised to know there’s no text from you and it still hurts though it happens everyday. Maybe that truth surprises me no more, but still, the pain I get from knowing it, is still exactly the same with the first time it happened.

Dolls, oh dolls.
From this super-duper-long-and-lack post, all I really want to say is only to keep your man by your side. To love him with all your heart, with all he got. No matter he’s on your criteria or not, you gotta love him. Don’t wait until everything turns into something you just never think over it. Do not wait until you do regret,, because it hurts more than losing someone, I’m telling you because I’ve been regretting all I’ve done for more than years.


Friday, November 18, 2011


“No. Not this time.” Decode—Paramore.

Hi dolls! ©
I’m gonna have my final tests by next week. They suck! Materials to be studied are just too much, think I can handle them all, but sure it takes a lot of my quality time…….. Well, who needs trigonometry? I doubt no girl want it.
And so, and sooo.
These exams really make me cannot blog and do my business. It’s just too bad since I’d found out some wonderful beauty blogs such like Joveeta‘s and Sheilla‘s, and their collections of makeup and reviews DO make me not spending  any money anymore for snacks and French fries. I need to work HARDER! I want to buy those makeup palette, brushes, liners, and lipsticks! They.are.all.just.AMAZING.

I really DO envy my friends who write makeup/contact lens reviews for others. I really DO want to make one! So guys, to you who are really interested in makeup and stuffs, and for those who really want to know what really are inside of my ugly makeup pouch, just visit this blog to take a look at some makeup tutorials and the collections that I have along with me. I really am going to make my own beauty blog, you can check it by clicking this.

Perhaps mine, is far worse and uglier than Michelle Phan’s. But I’m just being myself. I may not do a great fabulous edgy breath-taking makeup, but the makeup I do reflects my persona. Isn’t it what’s the most important thing –to bring than to be beautiful by following others’ style? *wink*
Just hope that you’ll enjoy my coming soon blog about beauty and makeup, also lenses reviews! There I will post some photos of mine wearing makeup and lenses. Love it you want it to happen on you. Hate it you want it to get better and better!  *laugh*
Have a great weekend, all dolls! ©


Sunday, October 30, 2011


"...Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky is like shooting star? I could really use a wish right now."
 Airplanes-Hayley Williams ft. B.o.B


Today is October 30th 2011! 
And it’s 1 hour and a half to 12 when I’m writing this. Wondering why I’m still awake until this late? Seriously dude, in which century do you live? Tomorrow—actually it’s just an hour and half to go—is HALLOWEEN! Still don’t have any idea what does the word ‘Halloween’ mean? Just click this link to figure out.

Dude, I'm really gonna be mean on this year. Wearing my red contact lens (from Chameleon Lens), the Sparkling Series and they look like this. The red one, but unfortunately the lenses are torn down! *sob*
I actually am edited this post, haha. I've used the lenses once, on the Halloween day, and thank God people were really shocked to know that I was wearing red contact lenses! Some of my besties insulted me for wearing them, it did make sense cause the pattern of the lenses are really not good. The base is transparent lens and there's a batik-like red painting on it. Here some expression of them :

Fany : WOW. Is it REDD????
Me : Yep. This is what I've been longing for. What do you think?
Fany : it looks like orange from far.

Me : .............................................

Ira : Eww.
Me : .................................................

I didn't expect to be praised, but I also didn't guess that I'd be brought down this baddddd. But not all my friends agreed with them. Some, also compliment me with nice words and excited face! *evil laugh*

Olivia : DAMN IT'S RED!
Me : ?
Olivia : KOOL, GIRL!
Me : *weird smile*

Jesslyn : Hi!
Me : *sitting on a bench* Hi.
Jesslyn : HEY!YOUR EYES ARE RED! KOOOL. But I thought your eyes were irritated.
Me : ha....haha. *weird face*

Ferdinand : Hey!
Me : Hey dudeeeeeeee.
Me : *finally impressed* thanks!

Nah there are some expressions that my friends were showing to me. I don't know which expressions dominate the most, but I think people were amazed. Really. It needs to be brave to wear red contact lenses to school. Senior High School could be the nicest place also the worst at the same time. People will love you the most when you're being right at the right time, or hate and swear on you for being too sucks. It was great to wear a pair of daring contact lenses to school! Even my teachers didn't complain about it *dance*

Too bad I didn't take some pictures of mine wearing those lens. TOO BAD..
They are torn down before I have my second chance wearing them. Ugh.


October, 31st 2011.
I was so meaaaaaan all the way, today. Halloween is a day that you could really be a mean person. Trick people when they don't treat you well. Treat them when they don't play tricks on you. But the rules were really not into me. I tricked people no matter they treat or spit on me. I'd never treated people well on Halloween! If I had, I might not get a lot of milk candy (which is soo delicious and covered with a piece of gelatin) and I might not have such a fun.

Okay that's all for now, by the way, this is my second post! *yippie*
Sorry for the lack :( Been busy last few weeks!


Monday, September 5, 2011

Newbie Baby

"...These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real." My Immortal-Evanescence.

One word to start this blog : WOW.
WOW, can't believe I'm writing a blog, I AM BLOGGING RITE NOW!! *scream*
This is one of my childhood dream : to write a success blog. an epic one.  
Wish me lot of good lucks, so I can make my dream come true! Epic blog, million followers!